phuckyeahphillip

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Still juggling dual identities

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being the unattractive friend is not easy i don’t think we get enough credit

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i literally want to die

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rip

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Words. To. Live. By.

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please unmute this vine

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my fave vine on this whole earth [x]

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Social Life

Tried having one. Everybody is always busy when I ask if they want to hang out. I may be asking them at the wrong times, but I no longer like asking because I no longer accept being turned down. Sad truth. PS: don't tfti me if we have not hung out in over a year, especially if I made multiple efforts to hang out with you with no success.

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Random memory

I became friends with this one girl during my sophomore year. Let's call her "M". Right after I became M's friend, an old friend I met in elementary school made a Facebook. This old friend of mine, let's call her "L" just so happened to also be a friend of M. Upon adding L, I posted on her wall saying how it was great to see her again. Now M did not know much about me, so upon seeing my post on L's wall, she felt the need to comment on my post asking if I even knew her. Seeing her comment, I realized that she must have thought I was a creep that began to add all of her friends and post on their walls. After making my realization, I came to the conclusion that M was a complete moron and had no sense of logic. She must have thought she was a moron too after L explained our history to her. End of story 😂

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All very good points.

Also some of the reasons why I'm leaving CSUF for PCC next semester

important facts about community college

- just as much of a quality education as you would get at a state school or uni 

- much more affordable 

- usually more night classes that make going to school while working and/or taking care of kids much easier 

- transfer students actually have a higher graduation rate than students who have been at a university all 4 years 

- there is nothing wrong with aspiring to go to a community college 

- there is nothing wrong with being proud of attending a community college 

- there is absolutely nothing wrong with community college 

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Reflecting on my current point in life

I'm really sad. I've shied away from admitting it for a really long time. I've been through a lot since college has started, and it's been extremely overwhelming. I don't know what's become of me. I'm keeping to myself a lot more. I see my friends and they ask me where and how I've been but I just lie to them and say that I'm doing fine. It's killing me on the inside to not be able to come out and tell them how I really feel, but I just can't bring myself to do it. Everybody I know seems to be happy at their current stage in life and I don't want to bring them down. My problems shouldn't be theirs, but I want their help to bring me out of this shithole mental state that I've put myself in. I can't shake off the sad feelings that I have and I'm unable to let anybody help me change. The people that I consider close hardly hear from me anymore, and when they do, I just lie to them and let them believe that everything is fine, even when it absolutely fucking isn't. To the people that are aware that I've somewhat gone "dark" on social appearances, it's just because I don't know how to handle myself out there anymore. I'm not in a comfortable place at all. To all my friends that are close to me, I'm sorry that I haven't really maintained contact with you. I'm dying to know how you've been doing and how life has been treating you. I want to be a part of your changing lives right now more than anything because life fucking sucks right now and I feel alone. I live at college with my best friend but I hardly even see him anymore because of what I've done to my life. I just wish I had a familiar face here with me that could just reassure me that everything will be okay, because even though that isn't true, I really need to hear it from somebody to make me feel better. 

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You need to get off my mind.

The Neighbourhood (via newneattshirt)

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playing a dangerous game