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I don’t do shit all on this app but omg I gotta say.

I’m about to graduate and I’m the happiest I’ve ever felt, even though I got exams next week and I should be stressing I can only think about the future.

Im motivated again, I want to do things, I want to see things, the freedom is amazing. You never realise how much of a downer school is to some people until you can finally see the finish line. I’ll miss it a bit but I sure as hell do not wish to be doing it again.

I can’t believe im finally fucking graduating I’ve already signed up for a sport I used to play as a kid when I actually had time and I have my resume ready for handing into stores around me to get another job cause I’ll have time for it!!!

And I can’t wait to go to Uni and meet all sorts of new and interesting people and join clubs, study stuff I love, save up and travel I really wanna go skydiving, I have since I was 10 but I gotta have the balls to do it.

My chronic inability to do things cause school sapped so much time is just melting away into that agitated restless feeling you get when you can feel summer coming to warm you right down to the bone.

But for now I gotta study….

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Omg guy, when you find motivation it actually makes me like… not want to be chronically online??? I had such a vibe this weekend. Got hours of study done so I don’t feel guilt (my math homework stares at me from across the room) I went on a lil walk and made sure to get half an hour of sunshine after I woke up.

Turns out looking after yourself is sooo good.

Yesterday I found a nice spot in the yard and after dinner as the sky got that lil nice shade to it I just spent half an hour experimenting on my guitar, it was so relaxing. Today I sat in that spot and just stared at the cloud (only for 10 mins though I had d a busy schedule)

Anyway, it’s important that between everything else in life we try and carve out time to think or be creative, boredom is good for humans cause that when we can come back as our most productive. This post has been a mess but it’s late and idc

Lil shipwreck from my walk

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IT KIND OF HAPPENED AGAIN AND I WASNT DRIVING SO I GOT A PHOTO

This one is a lot less pink and from a cOmPleTelY different angle and elevation and the city ain’t as soft looking but it’s a good photo

Went for a drive as the sun was going down yesterday right after a thunderstorm.

I went right down to the waterline and the way the oranges and pinks mixed in a pastel pool of colour behind the city skyline was beautiful. It was all soft blues of the city buildings and a gentle orange and pink gradient but not in a harsh way, it was just gentle and nice and gave me such feel good feelings. The earth is so beautiful goddamn.

Ur gonna have to take my word for this cause I was driving and couldn’t take a photo (responsible person right here 👆)

Anyway, here’s a photo of right before the storm hit (the room I was in was 0.3 seconds from flooding)

Nessy, 09/02/23 (date of drive)

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okay picture this; i go back in time and find a victorian orphan child. do i blow his mind? do i break his brain? NO!!! i give him warm soft clothes and a hug. he gets me wizard high off what would commonly be used to treat a minor cough in that era. we both eventually contract a deadly illness and then i bring him to the future where we get easily cured of our ailment. i buy him a happy meal afterwards. he’s my good son now. love you son.

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Went for a drive as the sun was going down yesterday right after a thunderstorm.

I went right down to the waterline and the way the oranges and pinks mixed in a pastel pool of colour behind the city skyline was beautiful. It was all soft blues of the city buildings and a gentle orange and pink gradient but not in a harsh way, it was just gentle and nice and gave me such feel good feelings. The earth is so beautiful goddamn.

Ur gonna have to take my word for this cause I was driving and couldn’t take a photo (responsible person right here 👆)

Anyway, here’s a photo of right before the storm hit (the room I was in was 0.3 seconds from flooding)

Nessy, 09/02/23 (date of drive)

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NOOO PLEASE NO NO NO I CANT DO THIS AGAIN I BEG OF YOY

KEIVONN WOODARD as SAM in THE LAST OF US 1.04

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Ultimate comeback, I beat the bus 💀

(it got stuck in endless traffic 😏)

#staywinning

Tried to take the bus again, literally stood there as it drove straight past my stop, I am shooketh, I am late

#bussessucktrainsaresuperior

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Was having the most boring, mind numbing, day but now, with abba blasting in my ears I’m having the most bopping, brain boosting day ever in all of history nothing can top this

💃🕺💃

MONEY MONEY MONEY

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Tried to take the bus again, literally stood there as it drove straight past my stop, I am shooketh, I am late

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My friends are all jumping on here so imma do the same, uuuh so today….

I woke up refreshed and rejuvenated (true) I felt refreshed and rejuvenated by the time my twenty minute snooze ended (lie)

Don’t remember much of today, but tbh I don’t remember much of most school days.

I got ahead on maths and my teacher got mad lol, I’m just tryna be the ultimate studious student there is to be

Also I tried to figure out a new public transport route home cause I dislike the long walk and the bus I was gonna catch didn’t even bloody show up 😭😭😭 this is why I am a train person through and through trains let me down waay less often.