matafromnarnia

[matafromnarnia]

My group got removed for some reason but I couldn’t careless cuz I just made a new one. Come join it is for people who don’t want to recover from their eating disorders

And if anyone reported, I would appreciate if you dm me privately. Everyone benefits from the group. And if you don’t like it then leave. We aren’t putting anyone at danger.

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ED has made me better at math how funny is that

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opening Tumblr > opening fridge

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Some memes, I hope you enjoy them a little :)

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I want to look as empty as I feel

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Me logging back into ED tumblr after spending a month binging and calling it “recovery”

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is it bad..?

that i check my friends weight and aggressively, but internally, compete to be lower than them; even as there numbers go down?

that i wake up later so i have an excuse to not eat breakfast?

that i constantly move or in classes and when i’m not, i mentally scold myself?

that i almost fall over every time i get up? or see spots when i move my head too fast?

that i sleep with two two sweaters on to burn more calories in my sleep?

that my nails turn purple if the temperature is less than 70°F?

that i have so many bruises on my hips from floor stretching in dance?

that i have bruises, that i don’t know how i obtained, all over my body?

that all i can think about is how skinny i’ll be by 2019?

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That voice telling me to throw up the food is my second favourite.

The most favourite is the voice telling me not to eat.

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It's really sad that there are so many girls and boys struggling with anorexia, bulimia or just with hating their own body, and yet, people keep saying it's all just for the attention... LIKE YEAH, I'VE BEEN FASTING FOR 39 HOURS NOW, PLEASE GIVE ME A DIPLOMA!!!

I'm sorry for everyone who is in that shit as I am, I hope we can win this fight, even right know, we just want to keep going and losing the weight. Stay safe, I love you.

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I think my body overreacted. All I did was starve myself for 24 hrs, collapsing is a bit much. Such a drama queen.

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Why does everybody want to help when it is too late? Why now? Where have you been when I first time started to questioning myself? Where? Don’t help me now. Try to understand me or get away. I don’t need your help, not anymore.

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food diary app: “you haven’t logged any food items today!”

me: yeah i know that’s kinda my goal thanks

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i keep getting comments on my weight all i hear is “wow you lost so much weight”

little do they know their compliments fuel my need to keep up what i’m doing.

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My ribs are defined but not defined enough. My thighs are shrinking but not quick enough. My wrists are smaller but not small enough. I’m getting boney but I’m still not happy enough.

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Bones

Just because you can FEEL them, doesn’t mean others can SEE them.

TRY HARDER.

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Me before : I could never be anorexic, I love food too much

Me now : *refuse to eat everything I used to love* *feel like shit after every meal*

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All I've ever wanted was to find someone who will love me the way I am, not the way I look.

Now I want to love myself the way I am, not the way I look.