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"what's tumblr like?" "well currently the majority of the userbase are writing synopses and critiques for a movie dreamt up by an old shoe"

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i love the way taylor is constantly like oh god how could you love me? i'm a fucking mess. then again, of course you love me, i'm the best. but seriously, please stay with me forever. not that i need to say that, i know you love me, you couldn't stay away from me if you tried. i do wish i could brainwash you into staying by my side though. god you're so OBSESSED WITH ME!!!

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Keeping my fingers crossed that it’s cold enough to use the fireplace this weekend🤞🏾🍂

My mood has been a little off this week. I love the freedom of being a freelancer but sometimes I don’t love the responsibility of making my own schedule because I’m honestly not disciplined enough to keep up with a set structure. Hopefully I can find a happy medium soon. Being back in Philly and being close to family has helped with my sense of self and inspiration tho, so that’s a plus 🥲

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Stay motivated

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Midnights is for the girls who worked hard to get a life of their own, but now feel empty, it's the album you listen to when you're alone in the kitchen with no partner to cook with, no friends to go out with, no parents to comfort you. It's for the jo march girls, who gave up everything and everyone and pretend like it's alright but cry themselves to sleep every night, it's for the girls who stare at the ceiling for hours after coming home, it's for the masterminds, the people pleasers, for the girls who think they're unlovable, it's for the autumn/winter girls, it's for the girls who love rain and gloom, it's for the girls who read the most gut wrenching books to feel emotions, it's the ultimate sad girl album.

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bejeweled and anti-hero existing on the same album is a great lesson on the duality of self love — we can simultaneously be our biggest fans and own worst critics. confidence ebbs and flows; it’s not always there but when it is it SHIMMERRRSS

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Scenes from the student life I once lived. 

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‘give me back my girlhood, it was mine first’ is a powerful lyric on it’s own but the way taylor sings it and her choice in vocal delivery just takes it over the edge for me. she could have done the obvious, angry way of singing it with a lot of strength and power. almost like a direct threat at the climax of the song. but the fact that she goes against the obvious choice and makes her voice crack, makes it weak and fragile hurts way more. like she’s tired of asking for it back, she’s been begging for it for so long. she makes her voice higher to sound younger, like her younger self it trying to fight it’s way back and plead one last time to come back.

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progress can come in so many forms.

forming a routine. getting more sleep. showering more often. eating more than one meal a day. finishing an assignment on time. allowing yourself to take breaks when you need them. drinking more water. going outside more. spending more time socializing. not going to events that are draining. cleaning the dishes before they pile up.

some things seem like little steps that we barely acknowledge, but every one of them is a part of progress.

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when mitski said “Sorry, I don't want your touch, It's not that I don't want you, Sorry, I can't take your touch” i felt that

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i’m gonna start running tomorrow and stop eating candy plsssss

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It is okay if you want attention, if you want to be held, if you want to be loved, if you want to be told that you look beautiful and that you matter, because you cannot tell it to yourself. Craving affection is absolutely okay. You do not have to go through life alone, my love. You are allowed to take up space and want someone by your side to support you and to simply be with you. It is only human to need another. All of these things are nothing to be ashamed of. (Just make sure that you do not depend your worth on the attention you receive!)

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11.29.2021

i am finally done with my fall semester and back home! i am so excited to be able to read and write again with no worries of school. hope you all have been doing well and good luck with finishing the semester! 🤎

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i’ve been loving the recent cold rainy weather, but it hasn’t exactly done wonders for my lighting.

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august 22, 2021

the adjustment to college living has been a little rough, but thankfully i have little objects of familiarity that bring me comfort. good books, my reading and writing journal, and cups of coffee and tea. i feel autumn on the way, and it reminds me that everything will be okay. best of wishes this fall semester <3

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