lesaupair

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martedì 16

ho rivisto la piccola Franca e le ho portato una macchina per fare lo zucchero filato.

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portaat

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giovedì 26

les au pair experience ends here. After one year and two months spent together I am leaving the girl I shared my life with, the little Franca. I experienced a lot, she grown up making me grow in the meantime ~ both inside and outside. She learnt how to be self confident ~ I learnt how to not lose my patience, explain when something is asked, repeat again and accepting compromise also. Franca is a beautiful personality enclosed in a 8-almost-9-being. The thing that touched me the most, besides everything, is the fact that when she was wrong she shut up for a while, then she came back saying ‘I am sorry.’ In these last days she was very sad and this happened a lot. We argued because she was sad I am going away, and she kept on saying me "I want you to stay longer". She is often afraid that people could get angry because of her, she becomes aware of her mistakes and she’s brave enough to think about it and say I am sorry ~ and this the most important thing, awareness and humbleness. This is the lesson I learnt from her. Second lesson learnt: I would never grow a child making mistakes as sometimes her mom did.

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sono sulla scala mobile ed esco dalla metropolitana, gente più grande di me mi sorpassa, sono quasi tutti vestiti di blu o di grigio, camminano con passi pesanti, salgono le scale con tonfi sonori. Forse sono la più giovane su questa scala mobile. Un uomo si volta per guardare dietro di sè, mi guarda di sfuggita, ha gli occhi azzurri, è strabico. Si rigira. Guardo i calzini grigi dell’uomo che mi sorpassa con passi pesanti, la valigia del lavoro ed ha voglia di andare a casa. In quel momento avevo tanta stanchezza addosso che mi veniva da piangere

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after the motorbike crash I did yesterday morning, today my arm hurts 

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sono passata da muji per acquistare una mantella da pioggia per il concerto di questa sera e mentre aspettavo che controllassero se ci fosse ancora la mia taglia il commesso mi dice una frase contenente la parola 'monsoni' ~ qualcosa come 'ci sono i monsoni' ed io rispondo con una frase sulla meteorologia, qualcosa di molto banale. Prima di andarmene gli dico che la mantella in realtà mi serve perché questa sera andrò ad un concerto e non mi va di portare l'ombrello. Tre ore dopo, senza che lui conoscesse il mio nome ~ né che il mio viso fosse visibile nella foto ~ mi ritrovo la sua richiesta di amicizia su facebook

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tutte le persone normali hanno una volta o l'altra desiderato la morte di coloro che amano

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mercoledì 25

dolore cosmico

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btw I am not happy 'cause after earning money my life still sucks so nothing have changed except my wallet

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wow 600€ in two days and I did nothing to earn them

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abolire l’hdr

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martedì 24

today I went to play squash for the second time ~ this time with a motorbike when I just ended the thought “I hope not to have a crash” we crashed with another motorbike

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last thursday I met an high school friend who now works at hangar bicocca and I found out the hangar has been painted with the Alfa Romeo grey before Pirelli bought it Alfa Romeo wanted to use it as the Alfa Romeo Museum but luckily it has been bought by Pirelli to make it what it is today ~ a free entry art museum thanks Pirelli

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art is very expensive

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D left his keys at my place so I brought them back to his place

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lunedì 23

I am pretty sad I am not able to express myself the way I wish through art art is a very dense medium that can be expressed and interpreted in many different ways and it can be both easy and hard ~ that’s why