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[harleykimm]

So is reblog is also not permitted?

That’s the difference. Reblogs are good! You promote the artist and their work.

At least for me repost is ok only in one condition: you asked permission and the artist said “yes”.

[harleykimm]

Three Years

Its amazing, three years with just you!

I wake thinking it’s not true 

It is! So why do I still feel like never getting out of bed?

Why do I still feel like there’s weight on me? 

Why do I feel like I have everything,

but nothing at the same time?

I feel like I’m swimming but I’m sinking 

Looking what she has what he has what they have 

And just thinking

“Why can’t it be simple?”

Two worlds so different 

Two worlds that aren’t meant to be mixed 

They’re screaming, They’re  yelling

“he’s not for you”

“He’s embarrassed to be seen with you” 

“He don’t appreciate the sacrifices you’ve made” 

Why can’t I see? Because I still see hope

I’m so in love, I’ll even take dope

Just to cope with the idea of this being so fucking toxic 

I’m home alone, screaming crying in pain

Your out with your friend you claim you don’t have

Why tell me you don’t have any? What do you gain? 

Do you notice? Did you see the scars? Do you see how broken I feel?

Do you know how I feel?  Can you see how I get when you're actually sweet to me?

When you take notice in the little things? 

I don’t ask for much but its so true

I feel completely blue, but wow! 

Three years with you! 

A never ending cycle..

Cry Fight Your Fault Kim internal screaming

Love, “Love” Lust alone

Its amazing, three years… 

But why does it still feel like the day before we met? 

*ding* look …its you <3 

[harleykimm]

Who can you talk to, when you don’t have any friends cause you pushed them away..or cause the relationship your in has a culture and way of life Barrier or because the family you have has raised you to basically not to cry cause crying is for the week and your consider a baby if you cry. Like who? Who can you go to when your best friend you’ve known since 3rd grade is all the way in Texas and the only person your completely attached to you feel like your smothering and will leave like the rest? Who? Just fucking who.

[harleykimm]

Emptiness

how to express a simple feeling? 

do I just write it out? spill it out? 

with no secrets but feeling like staying quiet 

no simple thing can be said easily. 

don't have no secret just emptiness when I look at you

have no love cause the bruises speak louder then simple kisses 

“I meant to hit the table, sorry I missed” is what you say 

yet how do I know? do I really want to be Misses to you? 

when you ask to look at my phone? to give you proof?

my silence is not enough? I was disloyal when I was with other one whom I shared much more in common 

I was disloyal to my friends whom I swore I would never leave there said

never once was I to you, loyalty held true and strong. 

but what point is there to speak such things? 

how do I express this simple feeling? 

too much held tight in my heart and not a single friend to really talk and express what I feel. 

just a crappy abusive toxic relationship to share the dark cold and ugly emptiness 

[harleykimm]

Jesus watches from the wall,But his face is cold as stone,And if he loves me As she tells me Why do I feel so all alone?

———Stephen King, Carrie

This is honestly my favorite passage from the book...I truly understand what she was feeling.

[harleykimm]

Sometimes

Sometimes I really think I’m beautiful, I’m worth everything

I look in the mirror

I feel so empowered, confident

I feel like there’s no wrong with me

That whoever is with me can handle my little cracks

My tiny flaws

but then it’s like these small things

these little bits of Thousand pixels

Where people repost and reply

Show what’s beautiful

Then I look up again

This tiny rectangle box I hold in my hand

Shows me pretty girls who show skin

They show me what is beautiful to you

To the world

I weep slowly cause I am not that

I weep alone while you go on laughing

sometimes I think I am really ugly,I am worthless

Where is the power? Where is confidence?

There is everything wrong with me

And no one can handle my cracks that are no bigger then an earthquake

My flaws are larger then the galaxy

Sometimes I just want it all to stop

[harleykimm]

[harleykimm]

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