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soon i will be making a post about what i've decided to make canon to my will's portrayal irt re2r, expect that later this week maybe

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Which one of my favorite musical theatre characters are you?

Natalie Goodman (Next to Normal)

You’re Natalie Goodman! You’ve felt invisible before, and you feel like you’re living in the shadow of someone else - maybe not a brother that isn’t here, but you definitely feel overshadowed. Your need to please others is excessive; I promise you it’s okay to say no. Your goal is to be perfect, but sometimes next to normal can be okay, too. It’s likely you have some mental issues and that causes you some anxiety, but nobody is perfect, and even Mozart had some struggles in that department. Your piano playing isn’t any worse because of it, and if you can be loved by others, you can definitely be loved by yourself.

TAGGED BY: @superboyandtheinvisiblegirls tyyyy! TAGGING: steal it chief

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i think i'd like to explore a possible verse where william survived rc and subsequently took sherry with him into hiding, if anyone would be interested...

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this can be worked out with other wesker writers but generally when it comes to their dynamic i default to: william experienced his sexual awakening via albert and often fantasized about him, but never confessed his attraction / desire due to the fear of possibly losing his friend or being outed to their coworkers.

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william and annette were never your average couple. 

they met in the spring of 1983, just a couple of years after the hunter project initially took off and william was well on his way to becoming one of umbrella's greatest assets. though he didn't think much of annette at first, it was her personality that initially drew him in; a very assertive, straightforward, no-nonsense kind of woman that didn't put up with anyone's mistakes. and of course, she was also strikingly beautiful- something he hadn't quite noticed until he really stopped to take a second glance. 

although he was technically her superior at this point in time, this hardly stopped william from trying to initiate conversation. his infatuation with annette allowed him to begin discovering facets of his personality / sexuality that he hadn't previously been provided with an opportunity to explore, given that he spent most of his time in complete isolation barring albert. william also spent a great deal of time in late puberty grappling with his perceived homosexuality, as he developed a "crush" on albert, born out of the prolonged periods of time they spent in close proximity to each other throughout the duration of william's developmental years. albert was also, very importantly, william's first and only friend at the time. fascination and curiosity gradually progressed into more elaborate sexual fantasies that initially disgusted william- not because he looks down on homosexuality, but because of the current social stigma surrounding it. being a gay man in the 80's was bad enough, but being a gay man at umbrella in the 80's? william did his best to suppress these desires and refused to confront his attraction to men for a very, very long time in an attempt to preserve his "normalcy." 

this, of course, did not stop others from speculating about his sexuality. william is a cis man, and as such he was always taught to live up to certain expectations that of which he never particularly cared to fill out. there are a great deal of aspects about his personality and physical appearance that others, especially other men who worked with him, would deem as "feminine" or not traditionally masculine. this led to workplace rumors about william possibly being gay or a "transvestite." he was not oblivious to this (important to note: even after he was married, these rumors continued though not to any debilitating degree). 

annette presented william with an opportunity he had been searching for for quite some time: be normal. of course, growing up sheltered in the 70's meant he didn't know jack shit about things like bisexuality, so william was more than happy to accept his attraction to annette as more "real" and "genuine" than his attraction to albert because this meant, to him, that he was heterosexual and thus "normal" in the eyes of everyone else. it was also exciting to him in the sense that for a very long time, william had simply resigned himself to the idea that a relationship was just never in the cards for him. he accepted at a young age that for the rest of his life, it would most likely just be him & his research with nothing else between them, but annette changed all of that. she would give him everything he never once imagined he'd actually achieve in life: love, family, and happiness (much as he'd like to pretend he was content to dedicate his life to his work, william's always been cripplingly lonely- but more on that later). the two of them struck up a casual workplace relationship. they gradually got to know each other better over the course of time, with william requesting that annette be assigned to him permanently so that they could continue seeing one another in private. the relationship brought out a great deal of william's personality that had remained hidden beneath the surface until now; a gentle, almost kind facet to his personality... if not horribly awkward. though he and annette were never allotted much time to do things like travel together or even spend all that much time with one another outside of work, it was the closest thing he'd ever felt to real love. it introduced a whole different side of him that he wasn't previously aware even existed. 

william proposed in 1984, only a year after he and annette became official. they were married by 1985, a shocking development for some considering the william birkin they had all come to familiarize themselves with. 

much as they did enjoy one another's company, annette and william's relationship was not given nearly enough time to properly develop. they married, bought a house, and it left them with an overwhelming sense of: "now what?" they'd return to their lives as normal, continuing on with their research without hardly getting any time to themselves. then came the topic of children: something they hadn't previously considered until it was brought up to them by others at their workplace. so when are you two going to have a little one running around? thinking about kids yet, will? it was the next logical step in their relationship, wasn't it? they had hoped, maybe, that having a child together might offer them some form of fulfillment outside of work. sherry birkin was welcomed into the world in 1986, named after a song william had grown fond of in his youth; "sherry" by frankie valli and the four seasons. they loved her. but, as is always the case, william chose to return to his work once more. he found that he couldn't stand to be away from it. it was like an itch, an incessant needling at the back of his mind almost like withdrawal. leaving felt wrong- like he was doing something he shouldn't, something punishable, feelings that were partially exacerbated by untreated mental conditions such as ocd and psychosis. 

the truth is, william was never fit to be a father. a husband, maybe- if he and annette were ever allowed an opportunity to truly blossom. but without proper guidance he fails to provide what is necessary for a child in the sense of being present and emotionally available. he is not unlike a child himself at times, as is evident by a great deal of his behavior and lack of emotional maturity and social development. loving sherry did not change the fact that he was a terrible father. it did not change the fact that ultimately, it was his research he "loved" more than her, and annette was left behind to try and pick up the pieces.

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if you have a problem with me calling out transphobia you can take it up with me on my main blog @ bladeofmarseille 👍 i'm here to write not argue with children

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i really hate making posts like these bc like. i don't want to be seen as That Guy trying to stir up drama but i've seen @/outbreaksurvived around a lot lately and i feel it's necessary to let y'all know that he is WILDLY transphobic. no i don't have screenshots because i blocked him but i do have others who can corroborate my experience if necessary.

he approached me because he wanted to write ashley/leon several months ago, and when i mentioned that i write ashley as trans he referred to her as a "former male" and straight up asked me "can she have a pussy?" my friend ross (@/slugrp) also had a similar experience quite recently where he was approached by the same person for ashley/leon. since he also writes ashley as trans, outbreaksurvived once again insisted that she be portrayed as """normal""" instead of being portrayed as a trans woman.

EDIT: testimonial from ross

EDIT: someone sent me these screenshots- apparently this is what he's telling people in an attempt to "clear his name" LMFAO

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Your portrayal is incredible! :)

TEEHEE... knowing that people who write sherry enjoy my portrayal of william is always wonderful <3 i love them sm, and i love the way you write sherry and all of your other muses. such distinct personalities on each of them.

* @superboyandtheinvisiblegirls / how's my portrayal?

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mun i love your portrayal of birkin so much i am addicted to seeing u on my dash it makes my day better. also I love how you draw birkin because he doesnt look like a twink he looks like a Guy. and he's so CUTE and i love how you add a little blush to him.

i know he is so evil but you make him so complex and squishable. also the pinup safsprin ad is so good i love it sm!!

ohhhhh you have no idea how much it means to me to hear this ;-; i love william so much and honestly i never expected to enjoy him as a character as much as i do now, but i'm so glad i took the opportunity to finally pick him up as a muse. and i am ESPECIALLY happy that you enjoy my art. drawing william is like, my favorite thing to do Ever atm and to know that people take such pleasure in seeing the things i post it just... it warms my heart in such a nice way.

i do sometimes worry that i make william seem too sympathetic but at the end of the day, he is not real. he's a fictional guy who i write on tumblr and it doesn't matter all that much considering he pretty much has next to no established personality in canon. i like to toy with both facets of his character and it means a lot to hear that you enjoy reading about it. tysm anon <3

* anonymous / how's my portrayal?

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beep beep how’s my portrayal ?

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@superboyandtheinvisiblegirls

Sobbing loudly.

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post re2 birkin for his @projectantivirus verse

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so i took the time to assess birkin's gunshot wounds and here's a little trivia? ig: - i counted 6 entry wounds and 6 exit wounds (he was shot with what are presumably ak-47s? idk i'm not a gun nut but those tend to use 7.62x39mm rounds so i feel like his wounds should . probably be bigger) - he was shot mostly in the left upper torso; specifically in the liver/hepatic vein & artery, the heart/diaphragm, and 3 times in the left lung - considering the damage to his lung and heart... i don't think he would realistically have been monologuing before injecting himself with G, LMAO. he'd be coughing and spitting up blood uncontrollably - his blood would also probably not just calmly pool underneath him, he'd be spurting that shit like crazy (as punctured arteries tend to do)

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tagging my weskers @umbreerie @sundhaft @manufactoredxbyxdesign @squarecranks + more probably. i think i'm funny

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𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑  𝐃𝐄𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐅.  bold  what  applies,  italicize  what  sometimes  applies,  strikethrough  what  never  applies.

𝐅𝐔𝐋𝐋  𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄.  Dr. William Birkin

𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐒/𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐒(𝐄𝐒). Will, ' Scholar Will '

𝐅𝐋𝐀𝐖𝐒.

moody  |  short-tempered  |  emotionally  unstable  |  whiny  |  controlling |  conceited  |  possessive  |  paranoid  |  liar |  impatient  |  cowardly  |  bitter  |  selfish  |  power - hungry  |  greedy  |  lazy  |  judgmental |  forgetful  |  impulsive  |  spiteful  |  stubborn  |  sadistic |  petty  |  unlucky  |  absent-minded  |  abusive |  addict  |  aggressive |  childish  |  callous  |  clingy  |  delusional  |  cocky |  competitive  |  corrupt  |  cynical |  cruel |  depressed |  deranged  |  egotistical  |  envious  |  insecure  |  insensitive |  lustful  |  delinquent  |  guilt  complex  | reclusive  |  reckless  |  nervous  |  oversensitive

𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐆𝐓𝐇𝐒

honest  | trustworthy  |  thoughtful  |  caring  | brave  |  patient  | selfless |  ambitious |  tolerant  | lucky  | intelligent |  confident | focused |  humble  |  generous  |  merciful  |  observant  |  wise |  clever |  charming |  cheerful  |  optimistic  |  decisive  |  adaptive |  calm  |  protective  |  proud |  diligent  |  considerate  |  compassionate  |  good  sportsmanship  |  friendly  |  empathetic  |  passionate | reliable |  resourceful | sensible  |  sincere  |  witty |  funny

𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐒  &  𝐇𝐎𝐁𝐁𝐈𝐄𝐒

art  |  acting  |  astronomy  |  animals |  archery  |  sports  |  belly  dancing  |  bird  watching  |  blacksmithing  |  boating  |  calligraphy  |  camping  |  candle  making  |  casino  gambling  |  ceramics  |  racing  |  chess | music  |  cooking  |  crochet  |  weaving  |  exercise  |  swordplay  |  fishing  |  gardening  |  ghost  hunting  |  ice  skating  |  magic  |  engineering  |  building  |  inventing  |  leather-working  | martial  arts  |  meditation  |  origami  |  parkour  |  people  watching |  swimming  |  puppetry  |  pyrotechnics  |  quilting  |  reading |  collecting |  shopping  |  socializing  |  storytelling  |  writing  |  traveling |  exotic  dancing  |  singing

𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐃 𝐁𝐘. @squarecranks mwah ty 𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆. whoever wants to. smile

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randomly remembered a post i saw on here of a re0 au where wesker and birkin take billy and rebeccas place …. felt silly