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Look what you did, you upset her

You fucking upset her again you fucking idiot that's all you've been fucking doing lately

Holy shit I can't believe I'm this fucking stupid

Why did I fucking do that? Gods I'm so fucking worried now I'm sorry I'm sorry

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You were doing so good, and you fucked up

You fucked up bad

Why doesn't she just leave your ass

I wouldn't blame her, not after your smart ass said one fuckinf thing

One damn idea later and I'm

I knew I shouldn't have said shit, this is why happens when you input

Stupid ass

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Its happening again

I'm too focused on myself I'm too much too loud too everything

Just stop talking stop feeling stop stop

This is why you couldn't fucking help anyone

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She,,

She called me her girlfriend-?

Are

Are we official?

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My friends really out here noticing I've lost weight and talking about how tired and stuff that I am now

And I'm just like ✌🏻

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If my chest keeps acting up on god I'll start crying do NOT make me go get this checked out

Can my body work for once in its fucking life

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If you see me losing weight

No you didn't

Nobody sees nothing

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I know some shit wrong with me

But god I just wish someone could finally call me out on everything

I just need to know how bad I am, why would you all pretend I'm okay when I'm not

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Lmao so I can't communicate to people about how I feel so imma just eat jellybeans and vibe ❣️

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Me not being able to lay on my side anymore cause it hurts my ribs :)))

Lmao I love the standards of beauty my mind puts me through

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Not me debating on going off on my family because nobody ever tells me SHIT

Especially with my childhood friends

I'm done smfh

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I do be a shitty friend and a terrible human being but fuckin yk

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Imagine not feeling unloveable

I want someone to love me

Love every perfection and imperfection

I'm so sick of everything I've been out through

Do I love too hard? Too fast? Am I even cut out for this?

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She comes back on Tuesday

I'll only know suffering until Tuesday

That's if she does come back, she could always leave me like dad did

And now she could do it with no remorse

I'm not that good a person anyways

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I love to continue to pretend like everythings okay but it's not

And the fact that I don't have to worry about people monitoring me is great :)))

If I perish from overwork or anything else thats good vibe checking me don't worry about it

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This is me pretending that work isn't sucking the life out of me and that I haven't truly felt like myself in months

I'm just taking one fuckin day at a time

And the only thing getting me through rn is a phone case I commissioned

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Please let me have pictures of you on this dumb micro sd card, if I could get into the phone that would be easier

But I'm okay with buying a reader if it gives me a chance to have pictures of you