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was wrong. i left loose ends and even sought out the very people i meant to escape from. different now. i know the motives of those who pretended to befriend me again. 

you will not find me again. no loose ends. no mistakes. “macthedev” is a stain on humanity, as is anyone who supports how he harshly bullies, harasses, and psychologically abuses those who he deems deserving. maya is dead. blaire is dead. you dont get to know who i will become this time, but she will not die by the hands of these horrible people, and the people who let them do it. 

i have disappeared. i have been killed. i refuse to let you torture me any longer. call it a victory if you must, but i win. you wanted me dead and thats not happening. your soul is marred by hatred and my conscience is clear. goodbye, fuck you, you lose.

its time to disappear

you wont be able to find me

goodbye

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its time to disappear

you wont be able to find me

goodbye

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the world has decided that i’m evil. i dont want to be evil, i just want to live. i hope you are satisfied by the results of your actions jack. you have effectively succeeded in destroying my life. you convinced everyone that everything i say is not to be trusted. you convinced everyone to be afraid of me. you won.

this tumblr will go permanently inactive on friday the 18th. goodbye

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Art by:  suasuasua_san

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Gems

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Pastel Goth/Punk Ibuki Sprite Edit

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i suppose me continually asking for help and everyone around me refusing to is just the classic “doing something over and over expecting different results is the definition of insanity” because i really am losing my mind after 4 months of everyone ive known in the past 5 years going from being friends to never wanting to acknowledge the fact that i exist in an instant

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also i dont really understand the idea behind telling me that i never listen to what people say, while also saying i refute everything people say (i cant do both, the latter requires the former), and then proceed to not listen to what i say and instead make a callout against me for using a word that is slightly too strong for the situation as if its relevant

THEN say you just want things to get better for me and when i ask for help with that you fuckin swerve and say nah find somene else to do it like wtf???? 

was it a blessing to get banned from social interaction? i apparently do not have a shred of understanding for how people are supposed to talk to each other since it always goes this way

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“wanna do x thing?”  yeah

waits for literally an hour and nothing happens

why even ask???

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homura soft resets the timeline to get a shiny madoka

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woops its the january reminder that love is a subemotion of sadness NOT happiness

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if you hate me now please just give me a sign of that so i can try to move on isntead of waiting indefinitely for something to happen

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another fat dr DUMP

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awwww yeaaaaahh!!!!!!!

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i feel like last night i fucked up the only 2 friendships i have left and now they hate me and if thats the case i litearlly dont have a reason t o live so i’m really gonna need one of them to message me soopn

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THANKS MIKU!

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@madokas

shuichi tries to dm a dnd session but its just a Fuckin Mess someone save him