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‘The first time I kissed my wife, she wasn’t my wife then, she was just this girl in a bar. But when we kissed, it was like, I gotta tell you, it was like I’d never kissed any other woman before. It was like my first kiss. The right kiss.’

                                              ( ind. selective derek shepherd played by alex )

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INDEPENDENT  HIGHLY  SELECTIVE MULTI-MUSE  played be Alex.

 ❝       𝐃𝐨𝐞𝐬𝐧'𝐭 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐬𝐚𝐲𝐬. 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐨𝐧 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐢𝐩𝐥𝐞 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞: 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐮𝐩 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐰𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞, 𝐧𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐬 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐬𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞𝐬. 𝐖𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐛 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐞, 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐣𝐨𝐛 𝐢𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟 𝐥𝐢���𝐞 𝐚 𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐫𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐡, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝 — “𝐍𝐎, 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐌𝐎𝐕𝐄.”       ❞

fandoms and characters such  as DC, Friends, Game of Thrones,  Grey’s  Anatomy,Harry Potter, Hunger Games,Marvel, One  Tree  Hill,  Star Trek, Star Wars, The Office, The Vampire Diaries, The 100.   GOOGLE DOCS &  INTEREST TRACKER.

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hey guys important note!! I've moved Derek back to my multi @chivalrytorn. Derek will always be a beloved muse for him but not many people still want to write with him so as much as I'd love to have a million blogs I have to prioritize. I really hope one day there’s a random spark in the grey’s fandom again and I will gladly revamp this blog. BUT ALSO IMPORTANT NOTE: ( this is not directed at anyone but just cause I've seen a lot of shit in the tags ) MY DEREK IS CANON DIVERGENT therefor the Owen my Derek knows, the Owen I know is the Owen we saw in season 11 and before. PLEASE PLEASE TAG YOUR HATE. like at least have the decency so I can block it? because I stopped watching grey’s because I genuinely felt like they just kept the show going for the money and anytime they could have a plot twist for extra viewers they gladly made a character ooc. I will never never accept the way Owen hunt apparently is now because frankly thats not Owen hunt and I can name a whole other lists of things that character wouldn’t have done.  AS WELL AS: I’m just not about hating so even if you tag it, if you’re constantly posting hate about characters I will unfollow. I’m not going to police your blog, you do you. but just be aware of this when following. 

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mcsatans‌:

heavy   painful   breath        /        deep   exhale   of   fear   ,   inhale   of   hope   forced   ‘pon   knives   cutting   flesh   open   beneath   skin   of   abdomen   where   flowers   are   filled   with   thorns   &   there’s   a   graveyard   of   butterflies.        pupils   locked   with   his   skin   ‘twixt   own   digits        (        𝗦𝗜𝗠𝗣𝗟𝗘   𝗧𝗢𝗨𝗖𝗛    ,   box   of   memories   open   thriving   to   swallow   whole   figure   in   &   there’s   a   battle     :     𝐻𝐸𝐴𝑅𝑇   𝐴𝐺𝐴𝐼��𝑆𝑇   𝑀𝐼𝑁𝐷    ,   present     &     past   fighting   one   another   ,   greedy   for   love   ,   wish   hanging   from   tongue   to   drown   lonely   evenings   healed   by   strong   liquid   choking   regrets   down   thirsty   throat.        gaze   meet   the   dream   ,   her   dreams   ,   what   could   have   been   but   destroyed   by   own   wrong   doings   ,   what   she   almost   could   have   but   allowed   to   slip   away   like   a   feather   on   a   stormy   night        (       𝐒𝐋𝐎𝐖𝐋𝐘    ,    𝙋𝘼𝙄𝙉𝙁𝙐𝙇𝙇𝙔   ,   TRAGICALLY.           ❛          he’s   going   to   be   fine.           ❜           𝐻𝐸’𝑆   𝐺𝑂𝐼𝑁𝐺   𝑇𝑂   𝐵𝐸   𝐹𝐼𝑁𝐸    !     features   captured   by   simple   nod   ,   eyes   lost   in   forbidden   fruit   dying   to   be   tasted.           ❛          𝐈   𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐓   𝐘𝐎𝐔   ,   i   do   that’s   why   i   called   you   right   away   ,   but        .     .     .        this   has   been   going   on   for   months   ,   obviously   ,   he   didn’t   tell   anyone.          anyway   ,   how   are   you   doing   ?           ❜

        𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞’𝐬     𝐚     𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭    𝐨𝐟     𝐡𝐢𝐦     𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠     𝐚𝐰𝐚𝐲    𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡     𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡     𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐡.   what     if     archer    couldn't     be     saved?    a     tragic     loss.    lips     barely     able    to     part     if    that     was     true,    he     wouldn’t     be    able     to     tell    her.     he     wouldn’t     be    able     to     handle    the     loss     that    would     grow     against    her     pupils.     his    eyes     don’t     move    from     her     gaze.              ❛       𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐨𝐧....𝐀𝐃𝐃𝐘...𝐀𝐃𝐃��𝐒𝐎𝐍!        ❜          he    tries     to     cut    her     off,     to    get     her     to    slow     down.     lips    moving     a     mile    a     minute.     spewing    words     out     as    if     it     would    somehow     make     archer    better.              ❛       slow     down.         ❜       he     finally    gets    in.        ❛        I'm     fine,    but    I     shouldn’t     be    the     topic     of    conversation.     how     are    you     holding     up?                    ❜               he     asks    but     he     already    knows     the     answer    to     this     question.     because    he     knows     her.    they     were     married    for     11     years,     some    years     filled     with    agonizing     rage     while    others     were     some    of     the     best    moments     in     his    life..     moments     he    would     always     hold    dear,     moments     he    would     compare     to    future     events     for    the     rest     of    his     life.    

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↳ | ; 𝐝𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐤 𝐱 𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐡 ✩ 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭 𝟎𝟎𝟏

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me: I want to do a greys secret Santa

also me: that would consist of like four people?

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@noteasilyswayed​

           ❛              𝐬𝐨, 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐝𝐨 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐢𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐫?          ❜

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                            𝐡𝐞      𝐡𝐚𝐬𝐧’𝐭      𝐬𝐞𝐞𝐧      𝐡𝐞𝐫      𝐢𝐧      𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬,      𝐢𝐭’𝐬      𝐚𝐧      𝐨𝐝𝐝      𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠      𝐛𝐞𝐢𝐧𝐠      𝐭𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫      𝐢𝐧      𝐨𝐧𝐞      𝐫𝐨𝐨𝐦      𝐫𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭      𝐧𝐨𝐰.      in     one      half      of     his      brain      it     feels      as      though      no     time      has      passed      while     on      the      other     half      it      feels     as      though      it’s     been      a      lifetime.      hands     sweep      under      her     own,      fingers      entangled      with     hers.      a      thumb     rubbing      against      soft     skin,      a      heart     skips      a      beat     at      the      finger      that     no      longer     carried      their      wedding      ring.                        ❛                        Addison,      he’s     going      to      be     fine.      I      promise      you.     I'm      the      best     there,      you      know     that.     ❜

𝚂𝙷𝙴𝙿𝙷𝙴𝚁𝙳   ,   𝙳.      ♡ ‘ ed   for   a   starter.

❛           i    𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃    you   to   be    𝘵𝘩𝘦   𝘨𝘰𝘥   today    .    can   you   do   that   ?           ❜           control   over   nerves   to   calm   down   ,   push   of   voice   stuck   inside   throat   to   come   out        (         ᴄʜᴏᴋɪɴɢ   ,    ᴛʜʀᴏʙʙɪɴɢ   ,   begging   for     release       )   .        waves   of   terror   ‘pon   brain   mixing   with   dance   of   memories   when   pain   washes   over   thorax   &   heart   squeezes   by   sudden   storm   filled   with   anxiety.           ❛           derek   ,   please   ,   he’s   my   brother.           ❜

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give this a like if you’re interested in plotting! my Derek muse is still rusty so I probably won’t be writing starters anytime soon.

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@magicandmayhcm​

            fingers tap against the drivers wheel. there’s silence that fills the air as deep sadness burrows behind his pupils. he should be enjoying this last day with his daughter but knowing he’s dropping her off at college creates a pit in his stomach. 

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aegent·: 

PEOPLE DON’T EXACTLY VACATION IN THIS LINE OF WORK.  That sounds dramatic, right ?  Blame it on the full - time - job equivalent of watching too many James Bond movies.

( Point is : people stop showing up for work around here, you start looking for obituaries, not out - of - office replies. )

❝ — — I feel like you say that to all the girls who show up with all their guts where they’re supposed to be.  Am I right ? ❞  Still, Sharon had kept an eye out, this time.  STILL, all that time spent off - the - clock wasn’t a vacation, but Sharon’s no less unmistakably glad to see Doctor Derek Shepherd come back from it.  PEOPLE DON’T VACATION IN THIS LINE OF WORK ; universe willing, they don’t get taken out by something as dice - roll random as a car wreck, either.  Sharon’s no big believer in fate, don’t get it confused : she just knows maybe better than most that whatever bearded old bastard who’s PLAYING ANT FARM upstairs has a sick sense of humor.

A … lukewarm - ish cup of Welcome Back Coffee gets carefully plunked down against a bare spot of desktop.  ❝ DON’T WORRY, I’ve been saving up. I’ll cash in once I can rest easy knowing YOU’LL BE THE ONE getting that three A.M. phone call. ❞

                     Derek      had      never     expected      to      come     into      this      line     of      work.      a     surgeon      was      something      he     always      knew      he’d     be,      but      a     surgeon      for      spy’s     and      superhero's?      never     could      he      imagine.      owning      his     own      private      practice,      being     head      of      neurosurgery,      that     was      easy      to     see.      but     this      was      unexpected.      but     he      couldn’t      deny     the      opportunity      had     saved      him      from     himself,      walking      in     on      his      wife     cheating,      life      turned      upside      down--      about     to      move      out     of      the      state     when      a      man     Nick      Fury      had     approached      him      with     a      job     he      couldn’t      refuse.      although      flash     forward      5      years     in      the      business,      he     had      made      quite     a      name      for     himself.      &&      with     that      came      a     plethora      of      enemies,      one     of      which      had     run      him      off     the      road,      leaving      him     for      dead.      yet     still      unaware      of     who      it      was,     he      felt      as     though      he      was     on      constant      edge.     Especially      now      that     he      was      back     on      his      feet     and      back      at     work.            ❛                𝐡𝐨𝐰      𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝      𝐈      𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫      𝐫𝐞𝐩𝐚𝐲      𝐲𝐨𝐮?           ❜      he     smirks      while      pulling      the     coffee      towards      him.                  ❛                 how’d      you      keep     yourself      entertained      while     I      was      gone?             ❜

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SMALL ADDEK HEADCANONS ( personals do no interact. ) 

1. It was just the wrong time, they were both heavily focused on their careers and neither one of them should have been getting married. If it had been later on Derek wouldn’t have pulled away and Addison wouldn’t have cheated. 

2. Derek never thought about having kids with Addison ( not because he never would have wanted to but just because he was so focused on school and then his job that it really never crossed his mind ) 

3. Derek will always been in love with Addison, his hatred for himself and her in the weeks that lead up to the final blow out didn’t allow him to get closure. By the time they did end up recoiling they were two extremely different people and it was very depressing to really not recognize each-other that much. 

4. Addison didn’t show up for Derek’s funeral because they never got the right closure, both of which are her biggest regrets. 

5. There’s still a part of Derek that thinks about Addison every Christmas and Thanksgiving, but mostly his birthday because Addison would always go all out. 

6. Derek lost all romantic feeling the night he walked in on them, although when she came to Seattle he genuinely  wanted to make it work but he literally could not get himself to feel the same way about her. 

7. Addison was the first person to ever call Derek a Neuro God and it stuck. 

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(    *    & .    —    GREY’S  ANATOMY  SENTENCE  STARTERS .

‘  what  was  i  to  you ?  the  girl  you  screwed  to  get  over  being  screwed ?  ’

‘  you  were  like  coming  up  for  fresh  air .  it’s  like  i  was  drowning  and  you  saved  me .  that’s  all  i  know .  ’

‘ am  i ?  … dead ?   ’

‘  i’m  glad  you’re  being  strong  about  this .  i  know  how  hard  this  is ,  i  know  how  bad  you  feel .  ’

‘  not  everybody  has  to  be  happy  all  the  time .  that’s  not  mental  health ,  that’s  crap .  ’

‘  it’s  not  a  screw  up ,  it’s  a  miracle .  ’

‘  please  don’t  cry  on  my  ass .  ’

‘  what  do  you  need ,  an  “ i  love  you ”  or  something ?  i  love  you .  call  me  when  you get  there .  ’

‘  oh , yay !  someone’s  hurt .  ’

‘  pick  me .  choose  me .  love  me .  ’

‘  i’m  just  not  ready  to  forgive  you  yet .  ’

‘  go  on ,  just  get  it  all  out .  all  the  tears .  ’

‘  i  intend  to  fight  like  a  girl .  i’ll  let  them  kill  each  other  and  then  i’ll  be  the  last  one  standing .  ’

‘  well ,  isn’t  this  cozy ?  can  i  join  or  are  you  not  into  threesomes ?  ’

‘  if  i  went  missing ,  would  anyone  notice  i  was  gone ?  ’

‘  that  is  rude  and  unkind  and  completely  true .  ’

‘  so ,  i’m  bisexual .  so  what ?  it’s  called  lgbtq  for  a  reason .  there’s  a  b  in  there  and  it  doesn’t  mean  badass .  okay ,  it  does ,  but  it  also  means  bi .  ’

‘  can  you  go  have  sex  with  him  and  make  him  be  nicer ?  ’

‘  i  don’t  know  what  i  am ,  but  i  know  that  i  am  not  happy .  ’

‘  it’s  okay …  to  be  tired ,  right ?  ’

‘  i  don’t  know  who  i  am  anymore .  not  someone  i  ever  thought  i’d  be .  ’

‘  i  believe ,  if  you  were  dead ,  the  world  would  be  a  better  place .  ’

‘  don’t  let  what  they  want  eclipse  what  you  need .  ’

‘  he  is  not  the  sun .  you  are .  ’

‘  he  can  go  suck  it !  i  am  the  sun .  ’

‘  did  he  visit  “ ladytown ” ?  because  i  find  if  they  don’t  go  down  to  “ ladytown ”  the  first  time …  there  should  be  no  next  time .  ’

‘  i  need  more  liquor ,  i’m  not  ready .  ’

‘  uh ,  this  bottle  is  empty ,  are  there  more ?  bottles ?  ’

‘  i’m  all  alone  and  i  have  nothing  and  no  one  wants  me .  ’

‘  let’s  do  it .  let’s  make  a  baby ,  right  now .  ’

‘  is  it  true ?  did  you  punch  a  homophobe ?  ooh ,  unexpected .  high  five !  ’

‘  we’re  adults .  when  did  this  happen ?  and  how  do  we  make  it  stop ?  ’

‘  you  think  i’m  broken ?  fix  me .  cause  i’m  no  quitter .  ’

‘  i’m  not  happy  and  bubbly .  i’m  dark  and  cloudy .  ’

‘  you  never  think  the  last  time’s  going  to  be  the  last  time .  you  think  there  will  be  more .  you  think  you  have  forever ,  but  you  don’t .  ’

‘  no  one  is  leaving  and  no  one  is  dying .  ’

‘  everyone  is  leaving  and  everyone  is  dying .  ’

‘  the  words  that  you  said  were  “ lets  take  this  bitch  down . ”  ’

‘  that  was  the  tequila  talking .  ’

‘  the  only  way  to  fail  is  not  to  fight  so  you  fight  until  you  can’t  fight  anymore .  ’

‘  from  now  on ,  you  can  expect  that  i’m  gonna  show  up .  even  if  i  yell ,  even  if  you  yell .  i’m  always  gonna  show  up ,  okay ?  ’

‘  it’s  not  true …  it’s  not  true .  he  takes  the  truth  but  he  twists  it  and  changes  it  to  fit  his  own  story .  ’

‘  you’re  my  person .  if  i  murdered  someone ,  you’re  the  person  i’d  call  to  help  me  drag  the  corpse  across  the  living  room  floor .  ’

‘  you  are  my  favorite  person  on  the  planet  and  if  we  are  meant  to  be  more  in  this  lifetime  it  can’t  start  with  you  cheating .  ’

‘  are  you  plotting  a  murder ?  a  nuclear  attack ?  it’s  fine ,  i’ll  get  on  board ,  i’m  sure  you  have  a  good  reason .  but  just ,  let  me  know .  ’

‘  you’ve  said  that  word  so  many  times  today  it  doesn’t  even  sound  like  a  word  anymore .  ’

‘  who  here  feels  like  they  have  no  idea  what  they’re  doing ?  ’

‘  too  many  people  have  seen  me  naked  already .  i’d  like  to  keep  whatever  dignity  i  have  left .  ’

‘  we  screw  boys  like  whores  on  tequila .  ’

‘  i  want  another  chance .  i’m  so  in  love  with  you .  ’

‘  i  know  you  have  a  boyfriend .  i’m  saying  you  could  have  a  husband .  ’

‘  your  boobs  are  perfect ,  your  hair  is  down  to  there .  if  i  were  you ,  i’d  walk  around  naked  all  the  time .  ’

‘  i  believe  that  in  the  face  of  overwhelming  evidence  to  the  contrary ,  we’ll  all  be  okay .  ’

‘  your  choice ,  it’s  simple :  them  or  me ?  i’m  sure  they’re  really  great ,  but  i  love  you .  ’

‘  i  get  it ,  okay ?  i  get  it !  you’ll  be  okay ,  you’ll  be  fine ,  but  what  about  me ?  so  don’t  do  it  for  yourself ,  do  it  for  me !  ’

‘  i’ll  never  be  able  to forgive  you  for  making  me  love  you .  ’

‘  when  your  life  is  sucking  you  get  drunk  and  sleep  with  inappropriate  men .  it’s  your  thing  or  whatever .  i  find  it  charming .  ’

[derek-shephxrd]

𝐀𝐌𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐀 & 𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐊 // 𝐘𝐎𝐔'𝐑𝐄 𝐌𝐘 𝐅𝐀𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 𝐒𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑 // personals do not interact. 

[derek-shephxrd]

I love my bby derek, tom welling is perfect.

[derek-shephxrd]

        maybe       he       was      too       harsh       when       it      came       to       his      sister       and       his      sister’s       daughter.       but      it       was       for      good       reason,       or      at       least       that’s       what       he      liked       to       tell       himself.       but      everyone       and       a      while       he      had       to       remind       himself       that       Carter       Shepherd       was      not       Amelia       Shepard.              ❛       𝐈       𝐖𝐀𝐒𝐍'𝐓-             ❜              saying       you      were       her....but       he      was       &       he       knew      he       wouldn’t       be      able       to       convince       her      other       wise.       when       he      looked       into       her      eyes       he       saw      his       younger       sister.       ❛           𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥       𝐦𝐞       𝐢𝐟       𝐲𝐨𝐮       𝐧𝐞𝐞𝐝       𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠,       𝐨𝐤𝐚𝐲?     ❜

protector / protectee starters  - still accepting ↳ @havcmercy​ // derek said  ❛❛ please try and stay out of trouble ❜❜

            carter stopped midstep at her uncle’s words, something in them caused her to stop and think about her plans to go out for the night. she couldn’t put her finger on it, but there was something about the tone of his voice that had her second guessing herself. “ uncle d…  i’m just hanging out with a couple of friends… ” then it something clicked… “ i’m not mom, okay? i stay as far as i can away from any pill that isn’t an advil or excedrin, alright ? we’re just going to the movies then dinner afterward. you don’t need to worry about me… ”

[derek-shephxrd]

drop some greys rp blogs bellow plz