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Oh hey, my teenage girl crush😭! She was everything indeed!

Winona Ryder as Lelaina Pierce in Reality Bites (1994) dir. Ben Stiller

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FELLOW TRAVELERS, 1.03

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Amen to this!!! The last thought is heartbreaking and probably true. He also loved him in the way he taught him - or tried to - to be more careful. In the way he (usually, with one exception) didn‘t belittle his religiousness, but instead told him they‘d turn the picture of Mary around next time. In the way he begged him not to go to prison and pulled strings to keep him out. In the way he was more vulnerable with him than with anyone. He is such a great character - so complex and full of contradictions, and yet so understandable.

the fact people think that hawk didn’t love tim is so ??? he loved tim in the way he slept next to him for as long as he could. in the way that in his mind, he was protecting tim even when he couldn’t see it. in the way he broke his promise not to write. in the way he eventually let go of his fears that were so deeply fucking ingrained. in the way he never let tim go too far out of his life. a hard front doesn’t mean there’s nothing there. the rampant societal prejudice, fearmongering and willful ignorance was to hawk what God was to tim, the difference being that hawk could never truly make peace with it and on some level, probably thought he didn’t deserve to.

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The video edit I needed😭! Showing all of the love and care and tenderness, including the one that Hawk showed to Tim, instead of ranting about how bad Hawk was to him - thank you❤️!

we're two slow dancers, last ones out

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Oh my heart! The kiss😭😭😭!

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Matt & Jonathan having fun between takes on the Fellow Travelers set.

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That tender moment - Hawk trying to help Tim and showing his care… the only thing missing was him saying „who I love so much“😭. But of course he didn’t say that.

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The finale of Fellow Travelersis now streaming, ahead of its Sunday night airing on Showtime—a conclusion to one of the year’s best series that is gorgeous, devastating, and cathartic in equal measure.

The story of a tortured-yet-beautiful romance between two men over decades, the show waltzed through those emotions throughout the entire season, as Matt Bomer’s Hawk and Jonathan Bailey’s Tim weather the historical circumstances that prevented their deserved happily ever after. Bomer’s nuanced performance as an infatuated, conflicted man is the best work of his career, and, in the emotion-packed finale, Bailey is a revelation. Across multiple timelines, he showcases how intertwined grit, defiance, and joy in spite of darkness are for gay men determined to make their lives mean something in a world that actively works to strip them of dignity.

The series spans Hawk and Tim’s meet-cute during the Lavender Scare and McCarthyism-led panic of the 1950s through the AIDS crisis of the 1980s. The final scene, set at the unveiling of the AIDS Memorial Quilt at the National Mall in D.C. that might as well have been an anvil plummeting straight onto my heart, it shattered me so much.

There are two images in the final episode that have seared into my brain since I first watched, tableaus charting the arc of a doomed, yet life-changing relationship. First is Hawk and Tim slow dancing naked in the privacy of a secret apartment and, later, Tim’s head nestled on Hawk’s chest as they take a post-coital nap—moments of bliss stolen in a society that won’t allow them that pleasure. Then there’s a mirror of that position decades later, when Hawk climbs into Tim’s hospital bed to cradle him, as Tim struggles through a rough night during his last days battling AIDS.

The power of those moments is amplified by Bailey’s performance. In the earlier timeline, his wide, giddy eyes betray a man fully aware of his good fortune to be so madly in love, cognizant of how precarious and fleeting the feeling could be and determined to live in the splendor of it. Later, as he faces death, his resignation to fate is not one of defeat, but a catalyst for clarity.

So much of his life was impacted—some might say ruined—by his inability to move on from his connection to Hawk. But in a sensational monologue delivered after Hawk questions how much pain he’s caused Tim, Tim corrects the narrative: “I spent most of my life waiting for God to love me. And then I realized the only thing that matters is that I loved God. It’s the same with you. I’ve never loved anyone but you. You were my great, consuming love. Most people don’t get one of those. I do. I have no regrets.”

Bailey’s performance of this monologue stunned me. It is spoken with such certainty, an outpouring of a lifetime of emotion funneled into a searing, pointed declaration. He’s speaking to not only a complicated romance with his lover, but also on behalf of generations of gay men whose great loves were colored and, it often seemed, marred by the misfortune of the times in which they were kindled. That’s the revelation that Tim, through Bailey’s delivery, speaks to: There’s no misfortune when it comes to love; we may now be aware of the hideousness with which society treated (and still treats) the gay community, but how dare we assume that the love found was any kind of misfortune.

I’ll be thinking about this episode, that monologue, and Bailey’s performance for a long time. Do yourself a favor and watch it.

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Okay, so this is the explanation of Valty that absolutely convinced me, and answers all questions of the nature of their relationship: they are mirror characters to Wilmon, with Valter mirroring Simon and Henry mirroring Wille, BUT they mirror their tendency to withdraw from each other. Henry is showing up whenever Wille is thinking of his duty, wjen he‘s conforming to expectations. Therefore, the can and never will be together. This is also why they LEAVE at the party in ep. 6, just as Simon approaches Wille. They have to leave, that‘s the whole point! It‘s foreshadowing that Wilmon are on again! And at the end, Henry is totally drunk and zoned out- good sign! He isn‘t needed anymore. Henry constantly cockblocking Wilmon was the whole point of him - he embodies Wille‘s fear, his tendency to do as the Queen wants and to repress his feelings for Simon. His whole role is to draw Wilhelm away from Simon. Likewise, Valters draws Simon away from Wille. You can find the whole long analysis on a substack called tv microscope. Go there, subscribe, and thank me later;-).

In the last couple of days, I've seen people on various sites say stuff like "there was supposed to be a Walty kiss in the finale but the actors were uncomfortable with it." The only source for this info seems to be "someone said", and given that Uno seemed surprisingly chill about the shipping in his PRP interview, I suspect it might just be one of those rumours that folks on Xitter start for fun.

However.

Whether there's any truth to this rumour or not, Uno, Fabian and the makers of the show owed the viewers nothing. Not a damn thing.

These two background characters were very obviously written as platonic friends to begin with; the rest was just interpretation by those of us who were fascinated by them. The fact that there actually was a very obviously shippy little Walty scene in the finale is an absolutely massive nod to our side of the fandom, and we should be fucking ecstatic that they put that in. Especially if the actors were uncomfortable. Even if they weren't, they did not sign up to play lovers, let alone cater to fic readers and writers, and we need to respect the hell out of that.

So please. Be happy with what we got, and read/write the rest on Ao3. And in case it needs to be said, do not harass the actors with Walty comments or content. Henry and Walter belong to us now, but Fabian and Uno never did.

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I have SO MANY thoughts about Simon saying "what the hell do you think?" in response to Wille asking if Simon is over him. For one thing, Simon looks so quintessentially *Simon* in that scene, adorable with his little fists. But also that statement is so Simon. It's strong, flirty, sassy. This whole season we saw Simon slowly break down, lose himself, lose his spark and defiance. But by the end, when he makes the decision to free himself from the royal family, and when Wille frees himself too, we see Simon's spark slowly come back. We get our snarky, strong minded, lovable sosse back. We get that old charm back in Wilmon's interactions, flirty and fun and challenging. Even though we didn't see a lot of Simon's "arc", so to speak, in the finale, these small details said so much. I was so relieved (and in tears) when I heard him say that line in that way, so snarky and flirty and confident. Simon is getting back to who he is, not just a boy with a huge loving heart, but also a boy that quips back, has strong convictions, whose presence takes up an entire room.

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I bet they won’t, there‘ll be more trouble up ahead - but I hope some serene moments in between!

The more I think about it, I feel like this season would be an ode to the serenity Wilhelm and Simon find in each other. And after everything they have gone through, they deserve to sit back and just have each other. 💜

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HENRY FOX + declarations of love ❤️

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Same😢

thinking about adam apologising to the premature baby in this is going to hurt. like ok. that hurt a bit TOO much

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Gosh the last gif!

@rwrbmovie & @rwrbsource’s rwrbweek: Day 1 | Quote

@lgbtqcreators creator challenge — color & quotes

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Pyramus and Thisbe, Alex and Henry

OKAY y’all; it’s time. I need to use my English Major Brain™; let’s chat about Pyramus and Thisbe. 

You know that note Henry leaves in the pocket of Alex’s kimono? The one that references an Ancient Greek myth about lovers who almost made it but died? I’ve got a lot of thoughts and feelings about it so let’s chat.

(TW for a mention of suicide in the original myth; feel free to skip the end of the first paragraph if you need to.)

Weiterlesen

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This is so on point, I love!

Prince Henry vs. Henry Fox

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So thankful Matthew released this scene - the missing puzzle piece!

you can live in your tower and protect your heart for the rest of your life and nothing will ever happen to you, but henry…nothing will ever happen to you

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This is the shot.

Erik's portrait placed next to wilhelm's reflection in the mirror, that’s surrounded by their pictures. He wears the exact same uniform worn by his brother and the mirror seems to frame him in a similar way too, the queen’s “people will always compare you with erik, in every step you take” echoing in the room. Also, the loose and clearly not-his-size jacket showing he’s supposed to take in charge a role that doesn’t fit him at all.

It’s so powerful.