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tangina my thoughts are killing me. Again

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I guess I’m going to have the best storyteller during my whole existence. I think I love him.

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Emman, if ever you’re reading this I want to say thank you. You are loved by me. Please keep that in mind, okay?

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scratch that: my friends are the sweetest

may pahabol pa pala wow talaga friends u da best,,,, more pimples here I come

I have one of the sweetest friends

today, binigyan ako ni Yana ng strawberry sour belts (my fave) na binili niya sa kanila fresh from Sta. Rosa because she knows how addicted I am to that HAHAHAHAHA thanks Yana 🥰

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glo and grow privately, 2019

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I have one of the sweetest friends

today, binigyan ako ni Yana ng strawberry sour belts (my fave) na binili niya sa kanila fresh from Sta. Rosa because she knows how addicted I am to that HAHAHAHAHA thanks Yana 🥰

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The goal is to laugh forever with someone you take seriously.

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said, “I don’t want to hurt you either.”

of course, I meant what I’ve said.

rather than hurting you,

I ended up hurting myself.

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I am not supposed to feel sad but why do I feel a little sadness in me haha

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hi again

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ayan na nga gago tinamaan na naman ako ng kalungkutan

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why do I suck at confessing my feelings to the person I like :(

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nananaginip ba ako?????? I think my crush likes me too. yata hahahahaahahahaha hes nice but hes younger than me so paano ba ‘to di ko alam kung seseryosohin ko ba e ayoko naman paasahin pero yun na yon eh YUNG CRUSH KO NA YON EH ANSNLPWJLAAHAKSNZIJW

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I was transferring photos from my phone to my laptop when I opened a folder that I shouldn’t have opened. *hindi ko alam na yun ang laman ng folder na yun* but no regrets, I somehow felt happy.

Hay, eto na naman ang madramang entry tungkol sayo. Ikaw na naman. Namimiss talaga kita, no joke. Nung tinitingnan ko yung mga pictures, bumabalik sakin lahat. As in naaalala ko pa yung mga nangyari nung time na yun. Ngayon nagsink in ulit sa akin na we do looked good together back then, gaya ng sinasabi nila dati. You looked happy and so was I. We looked very happy together. We looked so young grabe fetus. Ang fresh natin noon HAHA lalo kana. Ibang iba na sa aura mo ngayon urgh. Naisip ko na kahit ibalik man ang time sa panahon na yun, magugustuhan pa rin kita kasi alam ko na kung paano ka magmahal. * k o r n i

I wish you can read this para malaman ko if you’ll feel the same way. Namimiss mo rin kaya yung dating tayo? Naiisip mo rin ba minsan na balikan ako? Kasi ako minsan, oo.

Pero malabo na kasi kaya hanggang sulat nalang ako.

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when reality hits you at 2 o’clock

and here I go again. breaking myself for the second time. I know he’s already happy. well, sort of. but why do I feel like I’m being broken again? bakit ngayon pa? it has been 2 years pero BS two years mahal ko pa rin???? ano naman kasing pumasok sa isip ko at sinabi kong I’ll stick with him through rough times. na I’ll be there whenever he’ll need me. pwede ko naman sabihin na “No sorry. I can’t help you kasi baka mafall ulit ako.” GANON DAPAT pero hindi. you stupid self, u took the risk. why? kasi alam kong he’ll need me more than he’ll need anyone else. na ako yung tamang takbuhan niya pag may problema siya. I want to be there for him. pero yun nga lang ba ang purpose ko? hindi na ba talaga ako pwedeng mahalin ulit? I can’t just tell him na “Uy lalayo na ako kasi parang mahal na ulit kita.” that’s the last BS thing that I would do. am I really happy for him? oo naman. shit kahit hindi na ako yung rason ng pagiging masaya niya. maybe I loved him too much to just ignore the fact that he once broke me. and I think I still do. I hope not.

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I can hardly breathe.

I used to think that there was still so much time left, but now I can see that there isn’t nearly enough. And maybe that’s my fault. Every minute I live is numbered. I keep looking for love in all the wrong places. I keep wasting time that is so precious on people who never took the time to really look at me.

I know it seems like there are still a lot of days left, but I’m telling you there aren’t.

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it feels great muthafckin yea