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i lost the ask my bad! but here is jason for an anon

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Tilly and Harlow artdump since Tiktok liked them so much!! 🎃🦇

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I really wish butchhood wasn't conflated with being a protector so much, honestly.

I'm a very vulnerable butch. I'm chronically ill, invisibly physically disabled, and have a lot of mental health issues. My masculinity doesn't inherently make me more strong or powerful.

But there's a huge amount of butch culture built on butches being protective of femmes, or just being strong and working in very physically laborious jobs. It feels disheartening to be locked out of a major part of my culture, just because I'm disabled.

So here's to all the disabled butches who want, or are expected to, be strong because toxic masculinity has taught us the mascs are the protectors, but we can't be.

We're the ones who need people to slow down for us. We're the ones who need to sit down and catch our breath after walking a bit. We're the ones who need help. And that doesn't make us any less butch.

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There's so much going on at the end of the anniversary dinner.

There's Cytherea saying the dinner was "useful" and affectionately referring to the Fourth as "the children", when it of course transpires that the dinner was useful for identifying who to murder first, and when she will hunt and torment those children just weeks later.

Then, as the Fourth's whispered conversation about biceps grows in volume, this happens:

Their hisses carried. Abigail, who was standing nearby deep in conversation with one of the Second, reached out a hand to touch Isaac lightly on the shoulder in reproof. She did not even turn around or break off talking. The Fourth adept winced: his cavalier had a hard, resentful, told-off expression on her face.

The Fourth seem particularly upset by Abigail's silent warning. And with good reason. Isaac is the Baron of the Fourth. We know from the Cohort Intelligence Files that his father's title was held in stewardship. We also know that Abigail managed to get them rejected from the Cohort on age grounds, despite the fact that when they applied they were several years older than Judith was when she joined up. Which raises a interesting question: what is the Houses' definition of legal majority and does it differ by House? Did their rejection on age grounds perhaps have something to do with their education on the Fifth? Would they have been eligible on the Fourth, but were still considered children and in education on the Fifth? Regardless, at 13 Isaac is holding the title of Baron and Jeannemary is his cavalier primary. They are there formally as House scions in contention for Lyctorhood. They are, we have to assume, at this point in some legal way adults as far as the society of the Nine Houses is concerned. And there is Abigail - Abigail Pent, Lady of the Fifth, the House at that moment apparently actively annexing the Fourth - treating them as if they are still children and under her authority in public. Of course they're upset.

This isn't to say that it wasn't an otherwise prosaic family interaction and that they don't have a loving and very familial relationship with the Fifth - we see them bobbing around after Magnus and in and out of the kitchen before the dinner, happily acting like the Fifth's children. But the casualness with which Abigail shushes Isaac is inescapably, for all of them, also political.

And Cytherea immediately picks up on this. It's what seems to provoke her moment of candid reflection on House politics to Gideon:

Dulcinea murmured, “Oh, Gideon the Ninth, the Houses are arranged so badly … full of suspicion after a whole myriad of peaceable years. What do they compete for? The Emperor’s favour? What does that look like? What can they want?

Cytherea perceives this interaction as political. As evidence that she's right - that the whole system is broken. She sees competition in Abigail's parental gesture, and suspicion in the frustration of teenagers who want to be grown ups. And she kills them all.

And there's two rather awful thoughts that follow from this.

The first is the extent to which Jod's shitty system poisons things. Abigail Pent, who just wants to nerd out about ghosts but is very good at whatever job she sets herself to, has a marriage with a man that she loves as an equal...and over whom she holds life and death authority three times over, as his feudal lord, as his boss, and as his necromancer. He dies because he is her cavalier, even though it's suggested that his cavaliership was in part Abigail's gesture against having to participate in the whole system in the first place and evidence of her plans to escape it. And despite the fact that they clearly loved the Fourth as their own, every gesture of that love was also inescapably part of a political manoeuvre set in motion by previous leaders of the Fifth to draw the Fourth further under their control. And with Isaac still, at least on paper, holding authority in his own right, prosaic parts of that relationship suddenly become matters of state and not the teenage drive for independence. And Cytherea looks at this and, for all her hatred of Jod, is unable to see him as the poison at the root of it.

Worse, we don't know what happened next. We know eventually the Fifth went to the Facility, but what did the Fourth do? Did they make up, and say their fond goodnights? Or is part of the Fourth's hysterical grief as they try to summon the Fifth's ghosts at the crime scene because they slunk off after this, and it was the last time they ever saw them alive?

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I saw very cool cowgirls griddlehark desing and decide to make my own but unfortunately i have history clothing autism (I thought for a disgustingly long time about drawing Gideon pants or a skirt because there is evidence of horse riding in both)

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just having a normal time drawing normal things (😭)

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that one scene in httyd but make it griddlehark reunion

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[Jod Font: (757): now there's a facebook group for all the people whose lives i've ruined]

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choose YOUR T E A C H E R!!!

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K A B E D O N (+ no paint under the cut)

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@fandomtrumpshate gift for @theriverbeyond!! no text version below the cut

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walk with me Tower Prince tacky music festival outfits..... Ianthe in a full fishnet bodysuit with NOTHING underneath (it's a pussy out look).... Ianthe in a neon satiny jacket thing that only covers her arms and a bra with 6 inches of fringe.... Ianthe in a perplexingly fuzzy leotard with no bra.... Kiriona in a mesh tank top with a big chunky necklace and shorts that are so patterned they can be seen from space.... Kiriona in flip flops (she has the dogs out) and big novelty shaped sunglasses and a crop top...... both of them with aggressively peeling sun burns..... do u see the vision!!!

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whoa look who just appeared in my hades 2 playthrough... crazy

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life size depiction

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“My master in life was revenge,” said the Sleeper. “My mission is one of—Goddamn it, I’m not going to start talking like this.”

- Harrow the Ninth, chapter 49

Wake: me!

Photo: @wyyrdplayy w/ fog machine assist by @cassylvan

[baby tube progress and WIP]

bonus:

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HtN p. 58 // NtN p. 429

spinning this in my head at high speed...... the work relies on your continuance. the most important thing you can do is live.

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griddlehark modern college au because this book is metaphorically placing me in the jerma meat grinder hypothetical and i need something nice