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adhd breakdowns are whack because ur bawling ur eyes out over some insignificant bullshit while simultaneously being unable to rid ur head of the chorus of All I Want For Christmas Is You

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A person with an abusive nature will always register you standing up for yourself as an act of betrayal. Betray them.

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I get jealous really easily but not like an angry vengeful jealous more like a really sad lonely jealous because everybody likes everybody more than they like me and I really really don’t blame them. 

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one fairly common experience of gifted children is wishing for pain. wishing you had some great big horrible thing in your past so that you can justify the pain you’re in, and so that you’ll deserve help. it’s exhausting and it fucks you up and to anyone out there who feels like they haven’t suffered enough to get help: you’re allowed to want help. you’re in enough pain. you deserve to feel better

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i feel RAW 

all the T I M E

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it makes me sad that ptsd in media has been reduced to “big white muscly war veteran hears his kids playing like call of duty and starts yelling like hes in war” because its come to a point where people only hear about ptsd when relating to war. like in all those war propaganda movies about how “brave” they are. its damaging to nearly everyone who has ptsd for wildly different reasons. it trivializes them. it makes kids see them and say “they dont have ptsd because i know what ptsd is, and its not that.” shitty war movies like american sniper are the reason people make triggered jokes. because theyve “seen” ptsd, and they make fun of everyone who doesnt meet that criteria.

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Is anybody else bitter that their disability went undiagnosed their entire youth and was treated like a behavioral/personality flaw because they got good grades?

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Sometimes the hardest decision is choosing to live. That pivotal moment of realizing that you don’t want to die, you just don’t want to live the way you have been living. Choosing life after wanting to die is much harder than people believe because it’s a rebirth. It’s painful and it’s uncomfortable. Just know if you are hurting right now it really does get better. It’s a fucking hard battle but life is oh so worth living and you deserve to be here and to live and to love.

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The version of you right now is deserving of love. Not you two years ago when you had more of your shit together, or the five years later version where you’ll surely be thriving. The version of you right now. The one that might just be okay, or is really struggling, or is bored and unproductive. That version deserves love. Having trouble accepting this is fine, but actively denying it is not. Your value is intrinsic, and finding confidence in that is mandatory.

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