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“I don’t know what I want,“ she said, feeling the sting of repressed tears filling up her eyes as she stared into his lifeless amber irises. “But I do know what I deserve,” she managed to get out in a voice that was trembling almost as much as her body. “And it sure as hell isn’t you.”

— excerpt from a book i’ll never write #50 // I loved him and he loved me, but it wasn’t enough. It never is. (via a-laa-mode)

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“You will always have a place in my heart, even though you don’t deserve one.”

— and i hope i still have a place in yours x 

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nothing better than seeing the softer side of someone only shown to u

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“What are you into?” Is such a broad question, Like do I reply with a tv series or choking….

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Get you a freak that

Genuinely loves and cares about you and your mental health.

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“I realized that I shouldn’t have to work that hard to keep someone around. I deserve someone who stays because they want to, not because I ask them to.”

— late night thoughts #3 x (via a-laa-mode)

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““I am still learning how to love myself,” she said, her voice just barely cracking. “Every day I have to wake up and remind myself that my scars are stories and that the cracks in my heart are spaces for love to fill up and that I am not the sum of the people who have hurt me. Every day I have to tell myself that I am worthy of love. And I’m still learning how to believe that that’s true.” She paused and took a deep breath in. “You make me want to believe that that’s true." "So just be patient with me. Fill every nook and cranny of my battered soul with your smile and your laughter and your love. Bear with me as I learn to see myself the way you do. Love me as I learn to love myself. I promise I’ll get there.”

— loving me, loving you // excerpt from a book i’ll never write #119

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In this house, dumb bitch hours are 24 fucking 7

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““No feelings.” He says. “No feelings,” I agree. “Just the here and now." He takes my hand. I dismiss the infinitesimal flutter in my stomach that seems to last an eternity. No feelings. He kisses me with the force of his entire being - until it leaves me shaking. No feelings. He takes my laughter and condenses it into a glass jar for rainy days. For when he’s gone. No feelings. He tells me his secrets and I tell him why I have trust issues and he lets me rest my head on his chest. "No feelings,” he says. “No feelings.” I echo. I hope he doesn’t mean it. I know that I don’t.”

— Sue Zhao // “Timing” 

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“Would you believe me,“ he said, "if I said that people would love you if you ever opened up and gave them half a chance to?”

— Sue Zhao // Nothing but Strawberries #9 

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“Learn to protect yourself without becoming cold and shutting yourself off entirely.”

— Why is this so difficult (via blossomfully)

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“I learnt that goodbye sometimes means ‘I love you, but I need to leave before we tear each other’s fucking throats out’.”

— S.Z. (via blossomfully)

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“Call me at 4am. Wake me up. I don’t care, I just want to hear your voice. Tell me about the bad dream you had, tell me why you can’t fall asleep. Tell me why you prefer to talk at night, or why the words only come spilling from your mouth when you think no one is listening. I am here. I will listen to you when your shoulders feel heavy; I will hear your words when you feel so crushingly small. I will sit with you in silence when you are slumped against your pillow. I know your sadness is not beautiful, I know it is overwhelming and destructive and ugly. I know you feel powerless and redundant. So call me at 4am. I prefer you over sleep any day. Don’t sit there on your own. Talk to me. I love you and I care.”

— S. Zhao (via blossomfully)

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honestly just trying to get to know myself again.

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u ever catch yourself overthinking then you’re like bitch what the fuck who cares

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you change for two reasons: either that you learn enough that you want to, or you’ve been hurt enough that you have to.