bluethefool

[bluethefool]

Just in case you see this, I wanted to say goodbye.

You’re owed an explanation, whether you happen to follow me or are trying to track me down. No matter the reason you’re seeing this, or when, I guess I just felt like I owed the truth.

2021 has been rough for me, and I guess I finally snapped. I’ve been alone for a while, and I haven’t felt like I could confide in anyone for quite some time. It’s been a while since I’ve considered someone a close friend. I guess I just needed someone these last few months, but all my closest friendships are long gone. This place, this account, it’s filled with their ghosts. It’s a testament to the graveyard of my social life. I feel more alone than ever when I’m here, like I’m being haunted somehow.

It’s not healthy I know, so I need to get away for my sake. Start fresh elsewhere on the internet. Actually try to maintain some friendships this time around, instead of passively watching them die. Or sometimes pouring the bleach on the soil myself, because it hurts less to know exactly why something died.

I know most of you hate me, or would hate me if you knew me. I’m a radical feminist, a fact I haven’t exactly tried to hide recently. I’ve always liked villains the most, so it’s no surprise I am one. I don’t consider myself evil, but if it helps you to forget me, I hope this fact makes it all the easier to erase all memory of me. It’s what I deserve. It’s what I want, I hope.

If I could dare to ask one last favour, if I ever mattered to you at all, please don’t look for me. I just want to be forgotten, to die in your memories while I continue to live elsewhere. I wish you nothing but the best, you deserve all the happiness in the world. I hope you get everything you want and more. I’ll miss you more than I can ever put into words.

I hate leaving behind a ghost, especially since they’ve been causing me so much trouble, but I hope this sufficiently answered enough. I hope I don’t haunt you and I’m sorry if I do. I’ll be okay. I’ll be happy. That just can’t happen while I’m still here. Let me die this metaphorical death, and forget I ever existed in your life. May we meet on the other side one day.

Goodbye 💜