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i feel like this a lot recently. Everything feels like an agonising weight - how do I decide anything when so much has been taken away from me? You bury down any decisions that would bring you joy, as if the thought itself, to get your hopes up, is a dirty secret. Coping becomes betraying yourself in a million different ways everyday.

the way that i feel about him

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has this ever happened to you

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ursula k. le guin, leaves

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Stephanie Foo, What My Bones Know: A Memoir of Healing from Complex Trauma

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on the inevitable and loving despite, despite // a revisitation of this

various wikipedia pages / carl sagan / why the sun chases the moon / war of the foxes - richard siken / drunk drivers, killer whales - car seat headrest / saturn - sleeping at last / pale blue dot, photo from voyager / lighthousekeeping - jeanette winterson / ann druyan / new york times / neil degrasse tyson / david jones

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Beastie Boys 2004 Adrock please with his sass

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do u guys want to go on a walk

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found on this on flickr, 19th may 2005

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Ween 2022 Big Jilm im not gonna lie i think this is when the acid started peaking because i dont really remember this song and they played the argus right afterwards and i fully lost my mind!! But i have no memory of them playing puerto rican power after that

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"a colony of maggots building a fox through careful effort". on substack now please like and subscribe

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in the proces of over-consuming, over-collecting things to compensate.

everything i own has been thrown away.

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Leila Chatti, from “Tea”

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In her essay Less TikTok, More Screaming, Persinette writes that these e-therapists have turned healing into “a religion, a lifestyle, and above all, a brand” while promoting a culture of isolation and individual optimization. In this ecosystem, “...therapy has become a litmus test for social belonging and inherent goodness, a sign that one is aware of and has adapted to the newest standards of how to behave.”  The social standard this culture offers is one of controlled, placated solitude. Its narrative often insists that you’re surrounded by toxic people who are trying to hurt you, and the only way to ever become the person you’re meant to be is to cut them all off, retreat into a high-gloss cocoon of talk therapy and Notion templates, and emerge a non-emotive butterfly who will surely attract the relationships you’ve always deserved — relationships with other “healed” people, who don’t hurt you or depend on you or force you to feel difficult, taxing emotions. And finally, your life will be as frictionless and shiny as you, alone, have always deserved for it to be.

Rayne Fisher-Quann, no good alone

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Literally

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