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[bachlras]

something about seeing pictures of us as a child is so terrifying

he calls and tells us about how he found so many pictures of us together. hundreds, he says. i laugh and pretend im okay with that, but all i can think is “did our face give away anything that he did? does all the fear we felt show, or was i good at pretending then too?”

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this body will never be my own

they tell me cells regenerate. that one day, their touch will be gone. but i look in the mirror and i see his face. im told i look like him.

i will never be clean, and i will never be free

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TW INC*ST

this is not an invitation for proshippers to interact. you will be blocked

something ill never understand is why friends of victims want to talk to victims specifically about problematic ships. why would victims want to have a conversation debating if their trauma portrayed in media is okay or not?? inc*st is not a topic for debate. im tired of being used as a “unique pov” for proshipping debates. im tired of my trauma not being viewed as trauma.

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I WANT TO BITE HIM

something i started during blacktober but didn't finish until a few months ago

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as much as they make me insane i DO have to admit nagireo are objectively hilarious because that is EXACTLY the level of miscommunication i'd expect from a repressed gay billionaire's son and god's most autistic 16yro

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:(((((((

shout out to people who's family isnt entirely bad or entirely good, but something in between and you dont know how to feel about them. you feel angry but you also feel guilty, because you know they genuinely love and care about you, but sometimes they show it in a way you know its not okay. your feelings are valid, your anger and sadness and grief are valid, and you dont have to prove this to no one. bigger shout out to those with memory issues who know something isnt right but can't recall all of the bad events, only the feelings, which only increases the guilt.

[bachlras]

introduction 🐇

hello! my name is alice. i am the host of a hc-did system (collectively they/them) and i’m most likely the only one going to be using this blog. the amount of parts i know personally totals around 19. i’ve lurked in this community for a while but thought it would be nice to have a space to share some of my own experiences, whether it be through writing, art, or otherwise.

i don’t share personal information beyond rough age ranges (the body is -18, 15+) and general locations (we live in the USA). i will never share identifying details regarding relations to perpetrators, the group we were involved with, and perpetrators themselves. i also will not provide any p-word information about our system.

maybe i’ll open up asks at some point, but for now i’m just focused on making some friends and getting this blog off the ground. as for me, i’m alice and i use she/doll pronouns. i love black butler and may post about it from time to time. i also like playing instruments, drawing, ballet, those sorts of silly little things !!

just as a general fyi this blog will most likely contain RAMCOA/p-word vents along with vents about emotional, psychological, verbal, physical, s*xual, and c*lt abuse. everything potentially triggering will be tagged with #tw. we may also vent about christianity/catholicism.

thank you for reading all of that ^_^ i’m looking forward to meeting all of you!!!!!!!!!!!

[bachlras]

introduction 🫧

hello! im will/mavey, the host of the seaglass system. the seaglass system is a traumagenic DID system with 24~ members. tho they likely wont post much! itll be mostly me :) collectively we use it/they pronouns. im not sure how much ill post as im relatively new to tumblr but i look forward to finding people with similar interests!

bodily we are 18, though system wise i am between the ages of 15-17. we prefer to only interact with people with ages between 17-20. 20 is pushing it as well. we are from the USA as well. we wont share a whole lot of system information for our safety.

for a bit of info on me… as i said, im mavey! i use a plethora of names and i use he/it pronouns mainly. i am autistic so that may change our interactions.. my special interests are reptiles and horror media. i also really enjoy bnha, blue lock, and other anime, movies, ect! i cosplay and im also an artist. i enjoy sewing, dancing, and more. ill likely post mostly about my interests.

we may vent on this blog, all of which will be tagged with #tw. we may vent about substance abuse, inc*st, physical, emotional, and s*xual abuse, self harm, eating disorders, ect. proceed with caution!

thank you for reading!! :DD 🤍

[bachlras]

why are you gay